it’s the sound of the unlocking and the lift away.

the sun and moon remember us, though the halls within our hearts now house only ghosts. your voice still echoes in the hollows of my chest, the silence of things remembered is nothing now but an aching in my bones. i still think of how the syncopation of our breaths used to make the light break, sparking the sight of things brand new but today i am afraid to open these eyelids to a world that goes on. I don’t know when my freedom fled on the back of the night or when the world slipped sideways and we all fell to wishing. i want to believe in something better, i’ll turn these bones into concrete if it means i’ll never shatter. but i am nothing but porcelain and my heart is simply fragments of the same, held together by some simple means but always waiting to collapse. i don’t know when the sunrise became something to fear, when we buried our heads under the sand and wished for shelter from these simple truths. though this world is a battle my heart refuses to be a fortress, my best intentions at defense are meaningless and you have stolen all the best of me, a surgery that hurts more than it should but it is healing. i can’t find the solutions to the questions that i ask, but the problems seem farther from me the nearer you are and your fingertips seem like answers in themselves when they are on my skin, the light behind your eyes a promise to this world. and we were there, we lived in those days and broke against the walls of life like oceans on the shore. maybe we forgot what it was to be, maybe we covered ourselves under so many layers of protection that we buried ourselves underneath. when did fear become our keeper? we were kings and queens in this garden of promise but today there grow only weeds cracking the pavement, the sun doesn’t shine here anymore. our shaking hands make promises that our lives can never keep, this is all that remains of you and i. my hands shake lighting cigarettes destroying promises burning down this world and all i’ve ever known and all i’ve ever loved is all i’ll never find again.